I'm ridiculously blessed to find that so many friends out there have missed my posts here. Thank you for caring! In truth, I can't seem to find the passion to write much lately. Life is very hard with Zeb and much of the joy in our lives has been sucked out and we are desperately trying to find it again on a minute-to-minute basis. I devote every waking (and that includes the wee hours of the morning) hour to our school lessons and to creating an atmosphere of loving learning and living, despite the chaos that engulfs us daily. It is exhausting and draining and saddening. I have little time to chronicle our weeks like I used to, but I hope to someday soon find that place of peace again. I am maintaining my curriculum page here since it's my virtual notepad, but aside from that, I need time to just be quiet in the evenings ... time with Him, praying, learning to knit, reading, lesson planning, crying, whatever keeps me sane in order to face the next morning. Perhaps I'll share photos of the week if I'm so stirred. Talk soon ... we deeply covet your prayers.
Praying, sweet friend...sending love and hugs!
ReplyDeleteOh Erin. My heart so goes out to you. I cannot imagine how it must feel to know that you are doing something so GREAT, but for it to be SO VERY difficult. I am ashamed to admit that I'm not sure I would have what it takes to do what you are doing. I am praying for you and your family. I can only imagine that it MUST have been God's WILL for you to bring that boy into your lives. And, if it was HIS will, then HE will give you the strength and courage to make it work. Praying for continued victories, more days without tears, smiles on ALL FOUR of your children's faces, smiles on YOUR face and in YOUR heart. Praying for PEACE in your home and happiness in your soul. Sending love your way, sweet Mama!
ReplyDeleteOh, Erin, I completely understand! I, too, am praying for peace in your house and unity in your family. Enjoy your family. If you choose to post pictures, that would be lovely, but take care of your family and yourself first!!
ReplyDeleteTake heart, sweet mama, you have a lot of people out there praying for you! You are so amazing to open up your heart for a fourth time! {{{HUGS}}}
Praying for you as you continue to navigate choppy waters!! We are starting intensive therapy with Noah on Monday. I am here if you need anything at all.
ReplyDeleteI am still praying for you Erin & your family & Zeb. May your evenings give you the rest that you need.
ReplyDeleteCarin